the heart laid bare

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a strange distance
SWIMMING ALWAYS DOWNWARD
A ONCE-FAMILIAR LANDSCAPE
No Apology
the thunder
tinder
VERBAL PORTRAIT OF A CAT OWNER
critical shortage
the sky we thought we knew
CIRCA SOLEM
almanac
baby
dearest orlando
FIVE MONTHS
A LETTER TO THE UNDESERVING
cactus heart
would we
the fall of giants
paradise lost
Dad
after you've gone
time
a smile from the eyes
trepidation
why so cold
fix this
swallow me
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insular
cry alone
robin
quicksand
laces
D.I.S.C.
stripped
waving goodbye
your open eyes
enemy within
mortal
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sleepless
OUTSIDER
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come dream with me
in the face of adversity
one word
the dark of the night
untouchable
one and one makes two
you burn me
see me
this shaken core
my lover
helen
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chalk drawings
the longest night
stupid skeleton
CLOTHES MAKETH
FIRST LASTS
STELLAR
TODAY
I WATCHED A MAN DIE TODAY
THREE WEEKS
this slippery slope
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Arrows
First Kiss
The Talk Of Love
Nicotine
Blackout

TODAY

I got up today.
I made coffee today.
I fed my pets and gave my cat his tablet today.
I showered today, and washed my hair.
I replied to messages today.
I answered my phone today.
 
I breathed in, and breathed out today.
 
This doesn’t seem like much,
Until you consider that also:
 
I didn’t want to get up today.
I had no appetite today.
I couldn’t love today.
I felt disconnected from me today.
Everyone was a stranger today.
I did not want to breathe today.
I didn’t want to be in the world today.
I cried today.
I was so very tired today.
 
But I breathed, and cared, and groomed, and ate, and connected.
I did this under the weight of the world today.
I won at today.
I will try to do the same tomorrow.
Maybe I won’t win...
But maybe I will.

© mjc 05 November 2015

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Biography

Daughter, sister, aunt, godmother, friend, public servant; self-confessed hermit, confirmed cat person, sporadic baker, irreformable yarncrafter, voracious reader; occasional wit, voluble shower vocalist, frequent sacrifice on the altar of brain-to-mouth filter fails, random shit-slinger, unrepentant purveyor of puns and dad jokes, writer and poet.

I have always lived by the theory that no matter what you do for a living - if you are compelled to write, if you wake up in the night to scrawl the contents of your dreams on a notebook beside the bed, if no event in your life seems complete without you recording it, if you are drawn to comment upon the world - then you are a writer.

These are my words.