a glossary of terms
I’m fine thanks, how’s your world/job/family?I am deflecting
because your attention is burning my edges
like bacon in a too-hot pan
Don’t mind me, I’m just tired
Because I lie awake most nights
Anxious over being anxious
And talking about myself is exhausting
Sorry that I missed your party
And that I couldn’t bring myself to go
Where people might see me
And the darkness trailing behind me
We should catch up more often
But we won’t, because it’s easier on you
If I slowly drift out of your life
So gently you don’t remember to miss me
I’m okay
Except for the face that I don’t show people
Because nothing weighs heavier than pity when
I am not okay
I am not okay.
© mjc 08 February 2019
